What I think of myself after spending some considerable time alone, with no choice but to reflect: I am a lazy person. Im not as smart as I thought I was. Im lustful, yet I pretend to be in control of myself. I desire what other people have but I try not show it. I lie in order to impress others. I'm vain, Im judgemental. I'm selfish and self centred- I hardly share my possessions with anyone or willingly give away something that I value. I am the centre of the cosmos and everything else is, well, just everything else. I'm arrogant and I easily look down upon others. I have pride which I deem to be necessary. In my head I'm always right. I'm a hypocrite both in my thoughts and actions. At times I feel sorry for myself but show a brave face in front of everyone. I expect sympathy from people but reject it when its given to me......that is me in a nutshell- how bitter the truth is. But do I want to be all of these things? No. I want to be that which I pretend to be- a good person. I seek salvation, I seek contentment.
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